15 Months Old and Growing

Well, I have read several blogs and Facebook updates lately about some of my friends and bloggy friends that are having difficulty leaving their children at a sitters during the day and overnight with friends or relatives. Well let me jump on the bandwagon. After Zoey was born I stayed home with her for 6 weeks before returning to work. They were 6 wonderful weeks, but the time came when I had to return to work. That day was very difficult, but luckily I was very busy and I didn't have time to think about Zoey more than ohhhhhh 20 or 30 times that day : ) There are days when I'm so thankful to have a job and I really enjoy having something of my own. I am proud when someone asks me what I do and I can reply that I work hard as a paralegal. Then there are days when I would give just about anything to be able to spend my days with my sweet little girl and be a stay at home momma. I know this is one of those "grass is always greener on the other side" deals, but still...

So seeing as how I do work 5 days a week, when I leave work, I want to spend every waking moment with Zoey. Even the moments when we are sleeping I want to spend a few steps away from her. Today my little girl is 15 months old. Crazy. But in the 15 months since she has been alive, I just left her overnight for the first time a few weeks ago at the insistance of my seventy six year old grandmother My grandmother lives in Florida most of the year and we don't see her as much as we'd like. To make a long story short, she can be very persuasive. I can honestly say, that was one of the most difficult nights of my life. I thought about her so much but I knew that there may come a time that she might need to stay with family or friends for one reason or another. I still struggled though. I'm not sure when I will be able to leave her over night again...it may be awhile! So to all those mommies out there that are struggling with leaving their babies for one reason or another...just know that you aren't the only one out there. And to all my friends and family who have asked (some of you repeatedly) to keep Miss Z, know that I love you, but I am most definitely a baby hog : )